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Hello Again!
I literally have not been on tumblr in two years…..hi again!
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Quote of my Life (Hasa Diga Eebowai) →
My favorite song from Book of Mormon. (This is in no way meant to be offensive, just to be fucking hilarious)
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Anonymous asked: ha you say you have been through rough times...
complicated ones, for me anyway. It sounds to me though as if you think otherwise? I think the intensity of my past is more of an opinion, and my blog is my way of releasing inner tension.
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An eye for an eye makes the whole world blind.”
-Ghandi -
Who are you to judge me?
Who are you to judge me,
for what I wear,
for how I look,
for how I speak?
Have you walked in my shoes,
seen the things I’ve seen,
or been me for a day?
Who are you to judge me,
when you don’t know what I’ve been through?
Defy Gravity Daily
-Anna
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My Life
So once again, I haven’t posted in a long time but I’m still very busy. I made both District and State choruses, performed with Frost Follies, and I’m still working on Midsummer (though the thought of channeling my inner stereotype teenage girl is sickening). I’ve made some knew friends (I think), and just kind of been living life in the best ways I see possible. Two important family members to me, however, have passed away, making the last couple months kind of hard for my family. My Dad told me a really heart warming story though, about my Great Aunt just before she died last week. You see my great aunt hasn’t been able to walk for quite a while, and has been very sick. The day before she died, my Dad’s cousin climbed into bed with her, and quietly said to her “You’re gonna walk again.” My Dad then went on about how that was such a beautiful thing to think about. The fact that although things in life can really suck and things never go exactly how you want them to, one day it’s all going to be okay. I don’t just mean going to heaven, I just mean life in general. I’ve gotten really frustrated with ALOT of things lately and it’s been really hard for me to get over them. So when I can sit back, take a breath, and realize that this feeling can’t go on forever, I feel so much better. i know that every day is a new day, and it’s up to me to try and make each day better than the next.
Defy Gravity Daily
-Anna
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Update
So I haven’t posted in a really long time, but I’m back :) since I last blogged I’ve performed various gigs, (it’s kind of sad, each week I actually have to think about whether or not I’m performing that week now), and even achieved a part in Chalice Theatre’s production of A Midsummer Night’s Dream as Hermia. We’re making it into a kind of ‘mini-musical’, so I’m very excited. I had my first solo of the school year in early December, and it felt great to get back up on Woodson’s stage. I’ve lately been making more of an effort to be a better friend after a recent experience so I know that I’ll never do to someone else what somebody has done to me. I’ve also been making more friends, and it’s great that these people are standing by me in a time where I need them most. It means so much to me to know that there are people who still care about me, let alone put up with me :). Winter’s back on, and today we even had our first real snow. Got out of school 2 hours early, and hoping to have a 2 hour delay tomorrow. Well, that’s about it.
Defy Gravity Daily
-Anna
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So my parents and I have spent about a year now discussing the topic of a music focus school so I can thrive in a more enriched environment. The subject has final found its way to boarding school, and we’ve decided that the plan is to get me into Madeira School for Girls for my last two years of high school. I’m really excited to be living on my own when I’m 16, but I’m also nervous about my friends. As you may know from one of my last posts, I’ve been having friendship insecurities. This is leading to anxiety about saying the wrong thing around people, looking the wrong way around people, and not meeting people’s expectations. So when I go to an all-girls boarding school, what will they think of me then? I’m starting a new chapter in my life, nobody knows me there, and alot of them are going to be relatively wealthy. So it could either go really well, or really badly. And what about my friends at home? I get really jealous of my friends’ other friends. I’m always afraid that they’re gonna realize I’m not that great, and find someone cooler. When I’m in a different town almost all the time, they will meet si many other people, they might put me behind them. I’m nervous, but I really need to follow my dream to the best of my abilities. I’m gonna have to support my own confidence that my friends care about me and like me for who I am. If you have any encouraging advice, please feel free to post.
Defy Gravity daily.
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Defying Gravity: The raw definition
We all want to be happy. As we discussed last year in Mr. Beekman’s english class, it seems to be what most people strive to accomplish all their lives. They work so they can earn money. They earn money so they can buy things. They buy things so they can be happy. I’ve also heard it been said, whether it be a voice I hear in the hall way or a friend going through a tough time, that people often wish that all the bad things would just disappear. But what would we have then? A perfect world, with perfect people and perfect circumstances? Where would the fun be in that?! The truth that very few people want to know, is that without that misery, devastation, sadness, and heartbreak, there would be no such thing as happiness. How would we even know what happiness feels like? We might be happy, but we’d never know it. If in this fictitious world we ever did, by some screw-up of nature, did discover happiness, we’d have to yell out “I LOST THE GAME!!!” Lose the game people. Lose the game.
Remember to Defy Gravity at least once today.
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True Friends
A couple weeks ago a girl who I was very good friends with ended our friendship far from smoothly. I won’t use names, and I can’t really talk about what happened. But today, she sent me a message that she threw something that belonged to me on her roof, and that this thing was hideous. She also said that another one of my best friends wanted me to stop texting her. She doesn’t want to be friends anymore because I’m annoying. Because I’m in an extremely fragile state currently where I am depressed, lonely, confused, and scared, I am having trouble consoling myself and finding reason in the situation. So I turn to you, Internet. Do you think this is a valid reason for this girl to hurt me or not want to be my friend? Should she be able to turn my friends on me? And could it really be my fault for not seeing when it was time to shut up?
